A couple of weeks ago, a friend of mine jokingly told me I was cocky. (p.s. she hates that I keep bringing this up but I think it’s hilarious – the actual term used was “cocky as hell”) Again, it was all in good fun but as I examined my life and my mannerisms, I noticed that I thought it was funny to say things that actually did make me sound very cocky. This is not exactly how I want to be known, nor is it who I am, so I got on my knees and asked my Heavenly Father to help me develop more humility.
I know what you’re thinking – bad idea! Virtues develop from experience. We are not just granted the ability to be more humble. This is actually why I make a conscious effort not to pray for patience. Kidding….kind of.
Well, you guessed it. Last week I felt like I was kicked in the shins and shoved to the ground over and over. This week has only been harder as learning and growing experiences have entered my life. It’s felt like as soon as I picked myself up, I would get punched in the gut and thrown to the ground again. Needless to say, it’s been rough and at times it’s been really rough. But mission accomplished. I am definitely feeling the humility and it has actually opened me up to some very sweet experiences.
I don’t tell you this to draw pity or say “woe is me!”. Woe is not me. We all have challenges in our lives that help us to learn, grow and draw us closer to our Heavenly Father. I had the wonderful opportunity to meet with my bishop this week and he told me that his father used to say if we could all unload our burdens and trials on a table and see what everyone else was dealing with, we would take ours back as fast as we could. We experience the things we do because those are the right ones for us. We have the capacity learn what to do with them, we know how to handle them and they are given to us for our best interest. The refiner’s fire is painful but it is exactly what we need to get where we need to go.
I have a deep love and connection to words. I love quotes and draw a lot of peace from them. It seems that lately the ones my friends have been posting on social media have really hit home and I have really appreciated having friends that share goodness. It has been interesting to notice how many other people are commenting on these posts saying how much they needed to read that and expressing gratitude. The things I’ve been struggling with have been a way for me to connect with some friends in a different way that’s deepened our relationship through empathy. We all have struggles and even over the last year, it has been so amazing to me how similar so many of my struggles have been to those of my friends and the amount of strength we have all been able to develop by leaning on each other.
Life is rough, folks. It is beautiful, full of meaning, amazing and I am so grateful for it. But it is also rough. That’s the way it is supposed to be. Don’t let the hard times make you turn inward because I’m betting there is someone close to you experiencing something similar and you can help each other through it. Be kind to those around you. Smile at strangers you pass on the street or in the store. Open doors, offer assistance and be a light of goodness. It’s a cliche saying but oh so true – you never know what people are going through. Life is too short to be cruel or to be selfish. As you lift those around you, I promise you will be lifted in return. God is good like that. He loves you and he is aware of you.
This coming weekend is General Conference (feel free to ask if you don’t know what this means) and I am so grateful and excited to spend hours hearing from the Prophet, the Apostles and other Church leaders. It is always so uplifting and exactly what I need. I encourage you to join in if/when you can and give it a listen –> Here.
Now go have a great day. You are loved.