You may (or may not!) have noticed some subtle changes to my blog. I have been thinking about changing the name for a bit because really, though I still consider myself a runner, this injury has kept me off the pavement for almost a year now and with no signs of being able to go back anytime soon, there needed to be a change. I wanted this blog to be about whatever I wanted to write about that day, so I decided to give it my name. I don’t have a legal middle name but growing up my mom would always call me Alyssa Beth (A-lee-sah- Beth…kinda sounds like Elizabeth). I’ve always loved it and considered it my middle name so there you have it. The blog is now about me and whatever I want to write about 🙂 The URL will stay the same because I’ve purchased it for a 3 year time frame. haha But I still love it, so I’m ok with it.
Now back to your irregularly scheduled programming.
My company is in the process of revamping our website and one of the changes will be a new section with employee profiles. This week our boss, Todd, handed out questionnaires to fill out and at first it felt like a really bad first date. “What do you like to do?” “Where did you grow up?” You get the drift. But of course in true Todd style the questions became funnier like “Who is your doppelganger?”, “Use 3 words to describe you” (sassy, loyal, caring) followed 2 questions later by “Use 4 words to describe yourself” (babe, selfless, fit, humble) and “If you were Taylor Swift, what would the name of your next hit single be?”
It was fun to fill out and then we read them all at our weekly Friday lunch and hearing everyone’s answers were the best. I work with some pretty funny people.
There was one question (and then my answer) that got me thinking. It was “When you were younger, what did you want to be when you grow up?” and “Did you become that? If not, are you disappointed?”
I answered that I had wanted to be either an artist (when I was super little) or something in the medical profession. I discovered early on I have no artistic abilities and while I did start pursuing a medical path, I ran out of motivation and never ended up doing something in that field. I even wrote “I am disappointed in myself”.
In another post coming up soon (a video!!)…still working up the courage to post it….you’ll see me get asked a similar question and answer it in a very similar way. I had always wanted to pursue medicine but I didn’t fully commit to it. I got into the right major, I took all the prerequisites, but I didn’t get any clinical experience and I didn’t ever apply to any programs. It was in my reach and I was too lazy or tired or…something! to finish the job. Which is not usually my style. So in the fact that I did not follow through on a plan, I am a little disappointed in myself. I am better than that; I am a harder worker than that. But I have decided I have no regrets about this situation.
Something I decided in the last couple of years is I do not want to live a life filled with regrets or to spend my days focused on the past and the “what ifs”. I love my life and where my path has lead me. I may not be a physical therapist or a physician’s assistant or a doctor but I am a writer. I do something I am good at and I do it around people I enjoy every day. I spent 4 years of my life learning about the human body and I LOVED it. It’s knowledge that I can take with me forever and a passion I can still apply to my daily life. It helps me appreciate my body more, it helps me be a better runner/exerciser, and it helps me connect with people who are not in my profession. Then my job allows me to learn and grow in a way my previous knowledge didn’t require. It’s really a win-win situation for me. I get to be educated in a number of different things, purse a variety of passions and be able to connect with multiple types of people, interests and personalities.
I am a huge believer in that old cliche saying “everything happens for a reason”. Everything. Maybe that reason has nothing to do with you. Maybe that reason is just that you were stupid and made a mistake. Maybe that reason is divine intervention. But everything has purpose. We can learn, grow and become better people no matter where our life takes us. I’m learning more and more that the plan we have for our lives is most likely not the one that will be played out. God has greater things in store for us than we can imagine for ourselves. He knows us, He loves us and if we let him, he will lead us where we NEED to be in order to fulfill our divine potential and be the women and men he knows we are capable of becoming. Our job is to trust him and just do as he asks of us.
So no regrets. I have no regrets about where my life has been, where it is now or the direction in which I am heading. There have been and will continue to be bumps and bruises along the way, but that’s how we progress and I can’t imagine a life where I didn’t progress.